Dad I can't believe it will be 6 months since I held you for the last ever time 😭 I miss you so much and I'm finding it's starting to hit me more now that your really gone, dad it's so unfair I lost so much precious time with you last year as the home was in lockdown and Even when we were allowed window visits you didn't understand & that really broke my heart as when I ever used to speak to you I used to hold your hand so you knew it was me and I always hoped you would know it was me by my touch but I wasn't able to do that at our window visits it was so frustrating but I always held onto the thought once this coronavirus was over I would make up for all the time lost and I kept holding onto that thought especially as there was hope that cases were fewer And I thought you were being kept safe in your nursing home but unfortunately life gave me false hope as I still remember receiving that phone call to say you'd took unwell and they were having to do a test on you, my worse fear came true & I couldn't even be with you and getting that final phonecall to say the worse was confirmed and you needed me & I was allowed to be with you in your final hours we laid together listening to the music we always listened too while I poured my heart out and I talked about all our beautiful memories together reliving it in our heads. And then a few final struggles of breath and you were gone 😭 dad I think of you every day and I hope you are looking down on all of us and I'm sure you will be smiling down with pride at how well Chloe has done academically as dad you are her inspiration you instilled in her , her love of history and geography. Thank you Dad and love you lots and lots with malteasers on top xxxx