Thinking of you especially today as I'm hoping you leave me a sign to say your there for me today. Birthday's haven't been the same since I've got older but even more so when dementia was over taking your mind as it hurt mentally so much when I used to be with you on my birthday but you weren't able to remember it and I remember trying not to care but deep down it was so hard as I knew this was only the start of dementia's demands and I will always remember your 1st birthday when you moved into your upstairs room you'd only been there a week or so, so you were still settling in and I took you your present and card and balloons and you seemed happy enough but unfortunately dementia played a cruel trick on us that day as during that visit you suddenly didn't recognise me and you got so annoyed and upset at me as I called you dad and you told me you weren't my dad and even if I wished you were my dad you weren't as you didn't have any children. That day is still etched on my mind so much as I honestly had no way of proving I was mentally or physically your daughter to you and that still physically hurts as when I was growing up you used to always recite to me my full name, date of birth, time , and weight and you were always so proud you could recite it perfectly. and I always remember getting Chloe ready for school when I lived at portree and I heard a beep beep noise outside my front door and I went to the door and you had came up to surprise me off your night shift on your Scooter for my birthday with a card and present it was so lovely of you and that's just one of the lovely things you done for me over the years and I honestly need to concentrate on the happier birthday's as the happier times definitely overweigh the sad times. Forever your baby girl Jane Louise Love you 😘 xxxxxx (Our thing we used to do) 42p