Dad You've been in my thoughts alot as I really miss the guidance and talks we had as I always remember you saying if I was straight with you you'd be straight with me and recently little thoughts of things I want to ask you are in my head and it troubles me knowing they'll never be answered and that mentally hurts. Dad I really need you to give me some strength to cope with my long covid and eye op as I feel frustrated and as you would say " I feel like I'm pissing against the wind "not getting anywhere just getting constantly peed on. But dad I hope you'll bring me some sunshine soon.