Dad you have been on my mind so much as I miss you so much I still feel lost not going to see you and in shops I see your favourite treats and clothes that would suit you so much like your beloved wrangler jeans and polo t-shirt and either your denim jacket or your old trusty leather jacket. Dad I miss being able to spoil you it's like I've got all this love to give you and I feel so overwhelmed as Its like I'm having to bottle up all my love and feeling's and thoughts of you and I feel like I'm going to explode as i honestly don't know what / how I'm supposed to process the last 5/6 years we went through so much together and dad at times I really didn't know what to do for the best I hated having to make decisions about your health & welfare without being able to ask you what you wanted it always felt so wrong. Dad throughout everything we both kept going and even in the unusual setting of a hospital we got to make happy memories with the 3 C's and that's something positive to hold onto. Dad whenever you want a hug please come to me as I want one too love you forever as Dad. You'll always be in my heart ❤️ love you lots love Jane xx xx